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Monday, September 21, 2009

haikus

my friend and i exchanged some haikus:

Cheeky Haiku

Haikus can equal

Seventeen syllables, but

Not every time.

 

Isolated cry

Of a gull shreds silence;

3am blow job.

- jose fernandez

 

 

 


Wednesday, March 05, 2008

Claudius Byzantine says:

its just how i see the evolution man going. just as we will eventually relieve ourselves from reliance on nature, we will eventually (very very distanly) be able to relieve ourselves from reliance on others. believe that the ultimate, final evolutionary form of many organism will be a single, all-encompassing, omniscient consciousness, one that is completely self-reliant, completely knowledgable,

Claudius Byzantine says:

completely alone

Claudius Byzantine says:

its a sad and disturbing thought

Claudius Byzantine says:

i believe that if we ever get to that, we will have a much elevated consciousness than we have now

Claudius Byzantine says:

and the only way to find peace in our world is to embrace the knowledge and exploration of the self

Claudius Byzantine says:

for everything else is exterior

Claudius Byzantine says:

and therefore meaningless

Claudius Byzantine says:

im saving this convo. this is some crazy shit

enhae says:

i don't see it as elevated, i see it as repressed. i think that the trends we are moving towards pressuring us away from emotional dependence and humanity is something to be fought against.

enhae says:

this is real transcendence

Claudius Byzantine says:

at this stage, yes, it probably is unhealthy i think we will naturally evolve out of it

Claudius Byzantine says:

but then again, its what i believe

Claudius Byzantine says:

and doesnt mean its true

enhae says:

how would we naturally evolve out of it

Claudius Byzantine says:

as sentient intelligent beings, we have, over our history, freed ourselves from dependance on one thing or another; we dont need to wait for the change in seasons to create warm places of dwelling, we need not depend on the migratory patterns of fish for we now have fish farms, we need not depend on the shelter of forests or landscape to protect ourselves from predators for we can shoot them with

Claudius Byzantine says:

our guns

Claudius Byzantine says:

there are already sciences working to convert energy into matter. if this were successful, we need not rely on the instability of nature to provide for us. we will eventually to sustain ourselves simply by harnessing oe kind of energy or another

Claudius Byzantine says:

and while these freedoms from dependance may seem superficial now, i think that we will eventually evolve/reconstruct ourselves to be more self-sufficient

Claudius Byzantine says:

and, eventually we will grow out of the need for each other

enhae says:

i think you're forgetting that we need others to discover who we ourselves are. this movement doesn't seem to be towards any enlightenment but towards machinery and nothing but superficiality.

enhae says:

looking at your point of view, you would need other people to lead you towards your disillusionment

enhae says:

that you don't really need anyone. you can't come to this conclusion without other people

enhae says:

how can this be acheived if we are moving towards isolation

Claudius Byzantine says:

complete isolation can only be achieved when the person in question becomes completely self-sufficient in every respect. it can also only be achieved through immortality, one thing which may float into our spectrum. in this sense, if one has self-sufficiency and immortality, there would be no need for others because emotional dillusionment would be kept througout immortality

Claudius Byzantine says:

unending, in need need of renewal

Claudius Byzantine says:

in no* need

enhae says:

i'm talking about the initial disillusionment that causes you to isolate yourself

enhae says:

you cannot aspire to achieve something when you don't experience the said lesser existence of human connection

Claudius Byzantine says:

disillusionment would not follow isolation. its the other way around. when i said that self-delusion id the only way to know love, i meant it in the sense that everything outside of one's own mind is finite and has the possibility of not existing. only through self-delusionment can we find true, infinite love; love that we create ourselves, ie the only kind that is surely real

Claudius Byzantine says:

that doesnt mean that isolation should follow

Claudius Byzantine says:

i just believe its the only way to know true love

enhae says:

do you like buddhism?

Claudius Byzantine says:

some of it

enhae says:

your beliefs seem to follow a lot in the line of buddhist thinking

enhae says:

i tried zen, but then realized i associate truth much more with art than the mind

enhae says:

hence, why my major is english lit

enhae says:

and i'm a film junkie. art celebrates human experience

enhae says:

it is much more real to me than the mind

enhae says:

the mind being rationalization

enhae says:

and philosophic meditation based on reason

enhae says:

i know art and philosophy have much in common, but art seems to embrace

enhae says:

both human truth and mysteries

Claudius Byzantine says:

in this sense i agree with you although i believe the mind to be a reflection of our perceptions that are guided by our influences

Claudius Byzantine says:

i believe art to be a reflection of what is in the mind and, therefore, on of the most virtuous and noble pursuits there is for it is a reflection of our perceptions and existence

Claudius Byzantine says:

and i dont think there is anything more precious or unique than the human experience

enhae says:

i like what the romantics said about artistic inspiration: it comes from deep within your subconscious that you cannot penetrate purposefully. like a fading dream, you only manage to scrape peices of it when you're jolted with inspiration and creativity. so i think that art is beyond just a reflection of what is in the mind

enhae says:

it is reflective as well as spontaneous and inexplainable

enhae says:

coinciding with truth and mystery

Claudius Byzantine says:

i think it can be explained. however, in opposition to what you said earlier, i dont believe interpretation destroys art. i believe interpretations improves art because it allows us to open our minds into new possibilities and ideas as to its meaning

Claudius Byzantine says:

what destroys art is definition

Claudius Byzantine says:

just because something can be explicable doesnt mean its not just as miraculous

enhae says:

what sontag pointed out was trend nowadays to enclose art into a language limiting understanding based on our assumption on what the artist intended, or scrutinizing over the point of it. sometimes, there is no intentional point. of course she doesn't mean just limit your vocabulary to 'oh, that's pretty'. she wants intelligent observances, just not futile analysis and labeling

Claudius Byzantine says:

exactly

Claudius Byzantine says:

100% agreement


Thursday, May 03, 2007

now a converted pretentious-imagist-poem FEEN.

 

Alba

As cool as the pale wet leaves
of lily-of-the-valley
She lay beside me in the dawn.

- Ezra Pound

 

haiku

Night lies beside me,
Chaste and cold as a sharp sword.
It and I alone.

- Amy Lowell

 

As the cat
climbed over
the top of
the jamcloset
first the right
forefoot
carefully
then the hind
stepped down
into the pit of
the empty
flowerpot

-- William Carlos Williams

 


Tuesday, February 27, 2007

The anxieties of a girl about to vacation to the South

 

To eat, or not to eat – that is the question.

Whether it’s better to indulge in the taste of cheesecake

And suffer the subsequent inflation to the face and belly,

Or to force myself enough willpower

And by mastering self-denial, walk away.

No more, and by walking away I prevent

Having to wear a baggy shirt to the beach

That the extra pounds will inflict. This is a diet

That will not end in last-minute liposuction. Not to eat – to starve.

To starve – maybe to become anorexic: yes, there’s the danger.

Because in that moment of self-denial what horrible paranoia will come

When that piece of cheese is left alone and not in my mouth.

It will haunt me. That is the reason why

I suffer sagging flesh under my chin and rips in jeans for so long.


Thursday, February 15, 2007

poetry that doesnt give me the creeps, shivers is no good

"This is a photograph of me" by Margaret Atwood
It was taken some time ago.
At first it seems to be
a smeared
print: blurred lines and grey flecks
blended with the paper;
 
then, as you scan
it, you see in the left-hand corner
a thing that is like a branch: part of a tree
(balsam or spruce) emerging
and, to the right, halfway up
what ought to be a gentle
slope, a small frame house.
 
In the background there is a lake,
and beyond that, some low hills.
 
The photograph was taken
the day after I drowned.
 
I am in the lake, in the center
of the picture, just under the surface.
 
It is difficult to say where
precisely, or to say
how large or small I am:
the effect of wateron light is a distortion
 
but if you look long enough,
eventually
you will be able to see me.)

 

"Exit Music (For A Film)"

Wake.. from your sleep
The drying of your tears
Today we escape, we escape

Pack.. and get dressed
Before your father hears us
Before all hell breaks loose

Breathe, keep breathing
Don't lose your nerve
Breathe, keep breathing
I can't do this alone

Sing.. us a song
A song to keep us warm
There's such a chill, such a chill

You can laugh
A spineless laugh
We hope your rules and wisdom choke you
Now we are one in everlasting peace

We hope that you choke, that you choke
We hope that you choke, that you choke
We hope that you choke, that you choke



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